“You’re all going to watch me disappear into the sun.”

This is a lyric from Lorde’s song, “Liability.” Since the first time I heard it, it has been engrained into my mind, and with this, my soul. While at first reaction it may seem like an extremely depressing lyric*, for me it is one which embodies an essence of hope and peace.

Turmoil in life is not something I am a stranger to, and while I can tell an entire sob story which explains all of the turmoil, that would counteract the purpose of my blog. Let’s remember, this is a blog meant to spur my more positive side and I aim to accomplish that. Also, as the cliché states: “Keep the past in the past.” AMEN, to whoever came up with that one.

So, back to the lyric, hope and peace. Hope is what every person needs in their life and peace is what one wants to accomplish in the end, is it not? Sure, some people say, “I want to be successful.” Or “I want to be insanely wealthy.” Or “I want to live until I’m 100.” Those are all GREAT aspirations, but are they what bring hope and peace to ones life? I doubt it, I mean success and wealth mostly lead to discontent in ones life or the feeling of never having enough, while saying you want to live until 100 tends to be unrealistic and might actually take away from you fully LIVING.

“You’re all going to watch me disappear into the sun.” For me, it is letting go of all expectations from others and yourself and leading a life that gives you peace. It allows you not to care about what the world thinks of you. It lets you leave the past behind and into a better, brighter future. It gives hope that one can get to that point, that even if life may be tough at the moment, there’s hope. It embodies the life I want to live. Remember, nothing stays bad forever, it will always turn around and we will all get our chance to disappear into the sun.


*I realize it can also be in relation to death and the sun being her form of the heaven. Different meanings for different people. Although the sun being the door to heaven (or whatever one believes in) would still be a peaceful thought.


What is a lyric or quote which inspires you and how?


And so it begins…

“And so it begins…” a very popular phrase to signify the beginning of a major or important event. For me, that is starting this blog which will hopefully be filled with the various events (and most likely misgivings) of my life! How exciting.

I have been wanting to start a blog since I was about eighteen years old. That is now five years ago and while I could wait and ponder what I could possibly blog about, I decided now is as good as a time as any.

Now, as a forewarning, I have always been one to be a bit sarcastic, very dramatic, and full of self deprecating jokes. If you stick around, you might catch on to that, but surprisingly enough, this blog will look at life and the future in a positive manner (so I hope.)

There is a lot I have in store for me in the coming months, mostly regarding new jobs in new countries, with new people. Meanwhile, I have also dived back into dating. Add all of these factors together and you get extreme anxiety about the “unknown.”*

If you haven’t caught the gist yet, this blog will be used to keep me sane. This, of course, is only my first post, and I will fill you in on the details in later ones.

Until then,


*Pre-warning: “unknown” will be a word used often and with lack of restraint, at least until I figure out what the “unknown” is.